agh, ok. bear with me.
i am having a hard time this week. just ordinary things piling on top of one another and making a big heap of just... crap.
thus, art-wise i get blocked. feeling unsatisfied with my own art. like, by now i should have improved another step up the ladder and yet i'm still down here.
ugh, does anyone else find this problem? cause i'm feeling like the only whinny artist around. i mean, i know artist are known for being emotional and erratic and bla bla suffer for your art, or whatever. but i'm looking around (yes i know i should not compare self to others) but it seams like they are getting on with things, while ever little bump in my life seams to block me from art! EVERYTHING in my new environment is counter productive to inducing creativity of any kind. this sort of explains why i know of so little Ukrainian artists, like old masters.... and the little i've seen...eh.
There is danger here for the creative mind!
anyway, because of all this in my head, i'm stuck. even a simple sketch page seams like climbing Everest. thus, the reason i'm so slow with making those lately.
and yet, at the same time i feel like, if i was honest, i'm not pushing myself. i dont mean, push when i'm exhausted cause that just leads to more exhaustion for longer. no, i mean i dont challenge myself. and that's what i want to do now. with this picture. on this one, i want to find a better way of inking, then the way i normally do it and maybe find a way to color that goes better with the line work. since that's what i dont always like in my drawings.
so this is step one. the improved sketch. i've no idea where to go from here....